It's so hard being the eldest among the family, you have to do everything in order to help out your parents, from the simplest allowance and fare seems to be, the truth is I had to shoulder everything, so there are times I kid myself saying "What if
suddenly I had to fade out from this world" and so unluckily my Mom had to panic because of financial dismay and I wonder most of the times as to where my Mom gets their everyday meals. As you can see I don't lived with my parents anymore, not because I want to but I needed to, the fact is I had to look for a job, even to the point of ending up living with relatives for a few months and I'd make it to the point that I visit them when ever I had a few bucks to spare. But my Dad scolds me when I head for home he usually says "Are you always going to be liked this? that you had to come home only if it pleases you and you don't even persist in working you ass off so that we had something to feed your siblings. What about then? tomorrow? And what about the day after that?" Come to think of it I can't even buy my own basic needs and clothing that most of the times I pity myself "Poor little old me", in reality it's so hard to live your life in poverty. Basically I don't mind anymore what my health brings but usually ending up to more health related problems in which in return I immerse myself deeper into debt just to pay up medical bills, so there are times that what if I had just given up because the truth is the mental stress is just too much to bare it alone where even a day in your life is being pounded by day to day life and constant bickering by your own parents as to as far as I could remember in my early
age of fifteen (15) where I had to earn instead of playing as a kid, not normal as where you life had to impose on a poor child like myself, so if anybody ca read my blogs to help us out, so even if that luck passes by your way my advice is for you to never to let it go, because the truth is it's depressing just to think what's happening in my personal life, the hardships of poverty and the burden knowing your parents are jobless, while my siblings are still studying, I had to thank God that I have someone who helps me from time to time but of course I can't expect that always on him, and times are hard I don't expect too much.
suddenly I had to fade out from this world" and so unluckily my Mom had to panic because of financial dismay and I wonder most of the times as to where my Mom gets their everyday meals. As you can see I don't lived with my parents anymore, not because I want to but I needed to, the fact is I had to look for a job, even to the point of ending up living with relatives for a few months and I'd make it to the point that I visit them when ever I had a few bucks to spare. But my Dad scolds me when I head for home he usually says "Are you always going to be liked this? that you had to come home only if it pleases you and you don't even persist in working you ass off so that we had something to feed your siblings. What about then? tomorrow? And what about the day after that?" Come to think of it I can't even buy my own basic needs and clothing that most of the times I pity myself "Poor little old me", in reality it's so hard to live your life in poverty. Basically I don't mind anymore what my health brings but usually ending up to more health related problems in which in return I immerse myself deeper into debt just to pay up medical bills, so there are times that what if I had just given up because the truth is the mental stress is just too much to bare it alone where even a day in your life is being pounded by day to day life and constant bickering by your own parents as to as far as I could remember in my early
age of fifteen (15) where I had to earn instead of playing as a kid, not normal as where you life had to impose on a poor child like myself, so if anybody ca read my blogs to help us out, so even if that luck passes by your way my advice is for you to never to let it go, because the truth is it's depressing just to think what's happening in my personal life, the hardships of poverty and the burden knowing your parents are jobless, while my siblings are still studying, I had to thank God that I have someone who helps me from time to time but of course I can't expect that always on him, and times are hard I don't expect too much.
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